NOW! HEAR THIS! HEAR THIS!

I'M FREAKING OUT! NEVER YOU MIND WHAT ABOUT.

BUT LIFE HAS DONE IT AGAIN

IT HAS SCREWED ME.

lovely.

wonderful.

great.

i hope i'll calm down tomorrow

had a weird strange whatever dream last night. i know it's definitely impossible for such a thing to happen. JC... was terrible. it was an experience far worse than being tortured in hell. (so i'm exaggerating but it really scared me) if dreams were from the subconsciousness, then i must be really afraid of JC. i think it's the unfamiliar that scares me. ah well, my dreams are the opposite of what will happen. so that means JC will be great. hopefully.

a thousand words could not describe the beauty of a good fanfic. anyone sensing a whole lotta irony behind that statement? going back to SN tmr, we've got a patrol outing. AND why does everyone think that Sei is so sadistic and cruel? (aside from the fact that he IS that way). oops, just realised i answered my own question.

can anyone sense that i'm getting a little high? i think so. but i dunno from what/ there's no chocolate beside me, no wine, no X pics, no LOTR, just a bright blinking screen that seems... mocking.

ARGH... THE COMPUTER IS MOCKING ME.

whoops...

post has to end because christine has gone off the bend. (as usual)

ah well. bored now. i finally updated my fanfic. after abandoning right before i left for NZ. i even promised i'll update before christmas, but alas. that could not be accomplised. oh well.


You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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sometimes i doubt myself.


Aragorn


Which Lord of the Rings person do you want? (many out comes for anyone plus pics to)
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Blood


Demons which one are you? (for men& women with pics)
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i cant seem to find much good stuff recently.

except, my seishirou... picture. i need to go for some sort of detox thing or something. at least i'll get rid of my addiction.

"when the chips are down, when you're at the end of your rope, you need someone you can count on. and that's what you'll find here. someone who'll go all the way, who'll protect you no matter what. don't lose hope."

-doyle "hero"

always find what doyle said quite true and sad. well, since he died.

my headdddddd... i think that's why i had to sleep until very late today. couldn't wake up even if there was a fire, an earthquake and a flood all rolled into one in singapore. i'm going to spend the whole day sleeping tmr, until spongebob comes on, and then i'll watch it and go swimming. wheee. lalalalaa... i think the wine's all going to my head. see laaaaaaaaaaaa, no one asked me to drink so much. wine plus beer... i think it was really quite a lot. no no, i'm not drunk, i'm having a BLOODY HANGOVER. and i had piano somemore. i think i'm also a little high. i don't get drunk.

wad a stinking croak. nothing goes right for me. if i think i want to go left, the right way will be right. if i think i want to go right, the right way will be left. or whatever it is that's making me so confused.

i'm getting really really sick of everything. and no, it's not your crappified problem if i'm a pessimist. i rather expect something less and get something more than over expect. trust me, those things never work out right. and i repeat. i'm not PMSing. i just AM in a foul mood.

and no. i do not want to go to JC, i do not want to go to school. i do not like green eggs and ham. ok, wrong thing. i do not want to cheer up for the heck of it.

and hell. it's still christmas. well, it wouldn't be in 9 mins time!

is it too much to ask? seriously, IS IT TOO MUCH TO ASK? let's give christine a break. but NO! i don't hear that coming from anyone that counts. and i'm not deaf. and i think i'm going to go raving mad. what happens? everything screws itself up. i'm going to drown myself in alcohol. screw the hangover.

and my my. christmas eve was good as usual. marcus was fine, we didn't do anything to the punch, because it was already spiked. we didn't burn chips coz there was no candles. and i drank beer. quite a lot in fact.

christmas was ok. cheryl had her friends over, just samantha, sotong and then we asked nat. so it was fun. especially since we were playing with avi and brannon.

oh well. hope there's better gifts next year.

oh well. piano tmr.

Many days and nights ago,
A wonderful gift was given.
Jesus our Saviour, Son of God,
Came down to earth from heaven.

Jesus came as a tiny baby,
a tiny baby boy.
Jesus had ahead of him a road filled with pain.
Jesus was crucified for all our blame.

Many days and nights ago,
A wonderful gift was given.
Jesus our Saviour, Son of God,
Came down to earth from heaven.

How do you think that Jesus felt?
All tearful with pain.
I would think that Jesus felt the very, very same.

Many days and nights ago,
A wonderful gift was given.
Jesus our Saviour, Son of God,
Came down to earth from heaven.

When Jesus was crucified,
he rose from the dead.
He went back to his proper home
Up there in the air.

Many days and nights ago,
A wonderful gift was given.
Jesus our Saviour, Son of God,
Came down to earth from heaven.


Ruth Eardley, Age 7


Happy Christmas to all, and to all a good-night
-Clement C. Moore

MERRY CHRISTMAS. eve. great. wonderful. big whoop. i didn't get the X stuff i wanted. but then again, the only people who knew of my obsession with X is well, CCD, and my sister. so of course i couldn;'t expect anything much. well, there's always next year. i guess we've got to take the good with the bad. BLEAH

when life hands you lemons... gimme the trequila. i need a double shot.

looks like someone aint very cheery eh? that can be fixed! BRING ON THE WINE.

oops. too early in the morning.

but aside from it all, christmas does have a bigger meaning for me than anything else. more than presents. because i've already got the best gift of all. jesus. so i shouldn't be grumbling. *smiles*

merry christmas everyone

and yes! i watched LOTR on the opening day. and without having to prior book. am i good or what? i think it's the or what here.

anyway, had class gathering bbq thingy that happened to be not very good since it rained and rained. hello.... bbq. so of course it wasnt a roaring success. still, it was pretty good.

i'm back from NZ and i'm tired. jet lag and everything suddenly kicking in. *twiddles thumbs* tempers running overtime. for everyone. which is pretty freaky. my sis says hopefully it's pass in a few days. so best to keep my mouth shut most of the time.

NZ was fun. sometimes. basically, i think if u wan me to return there, sure thing. but please let me wait a few years because i realised how much i missed singapore. and i also found out i have a low tolerance for my sister and parents being with me 24/7. it works better when i dun see them for a while. we all get crabby. REALLY crabby.

LOTR wasn't really as big as i thought it would there, but it still IS quite hyped about. they really know how to make use of it to publicize. and let's say that i really got into the whole thing.

apparently, me always telling gladys "it's leg o les" with the stressing on the legless does have some sort of proof. see, orlando bloom was at a party a few days b4 the whole thing, sitting on a balcony drunk and all that and fell off, resulting in the loss of his legs for a while. yup, legless. there you have it. went for a trip in a jeep to the film locations as well. it was pretty cool.

went jet boating too. it went at 90km/h and at times spun in circles. on purpose. it was wicked.

oh my god. just finished reading a recap of survivor which i missed. great. i think burton was out. and guess wad? wanna know who won?????? i'm boycotting this show for good. dun read if u dun wanna know... ha! sandra. thaaaaaaaat's the end of reality tv folks! a million dollars to that goon? ha!

came home and checked the internet. VJ... yay!

going to new zealand today. fun or wad? not sure. just waiting and then i'll decide. i think i'll be bored during the plane ride though. i think riding in planes are cool. pretty comfortable. especially all the food. heheheh. does it surprise people that i like airplane food? its pretty good.

yup, flight's today but i have yet to pack. still, 4 years of packing of guides camps should be able to help me get my stuff packed in less than half an hour. still want to go and watch fellowship. i managed to get the extended version for just 12.90. yay me. so now both vcds are of the extended version. very cool.

fun fun fun. piano tomorrow again. how many times must i endure the torture? ok, so i guess it aint very bad. finished watching lord of the rings two towers. yay, see me. i know. i didn't watch the first part, nor did i watch the second, i think mainly because i was supposed to watch the second one but i was sick... so my family went without me. so yeah, bought the vcd. it was pretty cool, and i must say that gladys is right. legolas is good looking. so orlando bloom is good looking. i never said he wasn't. i just thought legolas was rather girly.

but now, no way. he's pretty cool. so is aragorn... eck, acting weird now. ah, just gibberish

ok, just to set the record straight, i am not in favour of people lying. just that it's the AIM of the game. get it?

time for my daily dosage of bitching. yeah, let's start with today. hmm, what went wrong? i dunno, you tell me. pretty good day, every friday is almost a good day. went out with my sis and samantha lim to kino and orchard. bought christmas presents, bought stuff for myself. did nothing else.

ok, so no bitching yet, sue me, i was wrong. ahah! then, we go home and watch survivor. grrr... blast sandra. i like burton. yeah, so what if he was voted in again? he's the strongest and the best because er, i say so? nah, of course i won't give such a lame reason. he's good. but noooooo, every episode we see rupert as jury rolling his eyes at whatever burton says. maybe his eyes will roll out. i used to like him. but he got cocky along with sandra and christa. he USED to be ok with burton, until burton screwed him and the tribe (according to himself) sore loser. sandra? LOSER. irritating. she cant swim to save her own life. she thinks she's the best. AS IF.

jon may be an asshole, but he's a good lying asshole. if he's smart enough to play on people's naivate, i say go ahead.

may the best liar win.

may i live to see the sun rise tomorrow
for my days are long and filled with sorrow
when the clouds part and hope shines thru
i wish for happiness for me and for you.

pretty? yeah? i wonder if that's just a hopeless dream. so it's part of a fic. MY FIC. that hopefully i'll write.

stupid computer. spoiled. and then we lost everything. all my files. bye bye. all gone. ding dong bell. i hate life. i really wish the end of the world would come. or a meteorite will fly and hit #$%^ (fucking person) and blow him to kingdom come. then i'll be happy. i'm not vicious. i'm facing up to life. blast him.

i'm back. yay. scream. wow. great. whatever. it's not like anyone would care. *angry bitter tone that sounds more indifferent than anything else*

camp. was. fun? maybe. it had its moments. that's all. first aid was sad/ all those tests. and the sec 1s pleading for marks. sad. i took all the questions from the answers in the guide handbook so i dun think my comment was cruel/mean/unjustified/stupid. so it aint my problem if people dun study. that's just humanity's problem

no wonder people want to destroy the world. mindless sheep. or else just plain brainless. assholes. hmm, wonder why i'm in such a mood. no, i'm not PMSing. i'm like that on purpose. and i know when to be nice. so get real.